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Soloist

Sat, 31 Jan 2009 13:16:46 GMT

[artist:Genetic Virus]

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the fantasies I had ��Щ��Ļ��
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My heart has been bruised �ҵ��
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I couldn't see that I was isolated ��ѱ��¶��ʶ��塣
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the fantasies I had ��Щ��Ļ��
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My heart has been bruised �ҵ��
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Even though I ask to myself I still don't know why ��ÿ��Լ� ��Ծ�һƬ�հ�
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Even though I ask to myself I still don't know why ��ÿ��Լ� ��Ծ�һƬ�հ�
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CNY 2009~

Thu, 29 Jan 2009 17:10:26 GMT

This is the 1st cny without mom. To me, cny is all about having reunion with family and friends. Friends are becoming busy with their own lives and the atmosphere of cny is not as good as last time.

Housechores that I've been doin have kept me occupied for the past few days. I found that I kinda like doin housechores. Luckily I found a book of which I can learn chinese and yeah, there's a tv to accompany my days.

Met up with sot gang and old friends and it's good to catch up with them. Sot 'lao yu sheng" at my home and it tasted really Extraordinary.

Facial expression

Mon, 05 Jan 2009 12:46:07 GMT

Hi all, this is gona be a short post again.Today's lesson is, if u did something wrong, just act like this guy. Everything will be fine.

New Year, new wars

Fri, 02 Jan 2009 12:21:42 GMT

Happy new year to everyone, and happy chinese new year in advance. As the turmoil of the world seems to be incessant, I expect more woes to come this year. The inequalities in our country are never ending and I can only say we've got no choice but to except it. In the other part of the world, wars and terroism seem to multiply as years go by. The most recent one being Israel and Palestine, and the Mumbai terror attack.

It makes me wonder if there is even fairness in the world. There is no right or wrong anymore as people have been holding on to their own belief and reject strongly to the opinions/criticisms of others.

While most people would condemn terrorism, terror attacks are treated as heroic acts by some people. Until the day when people can accept/admit their wrongful acts or beliefs and embrace criticisms, there will be no peace.

bravest dog

Wed, 03 Dec 2008 20:29:30 GMT

I received an email with the title "bravest dog in the world" few hours ago and just as I was wondering what was it about....I was wtf-ed!!! A dog raping a young tiger. How come the dog was with the tiger?? Its lunch? Can't be, must be the tiger's dad's lunch. So this explains the fate of the dog. This also reminds me about my dog who were raped not long ago and she gave birth to 2 illegitimate puppies...I'm stilll collecting evidence of the incident but the only thing I know is, she was being pursued by 3 male dogs(capalang ones). And, my dog is also capalang.. so capalang+capalang=bobocaca...haiz.....anybody wanna adopt bobo and caca? Free delivery.

Faded happiness

Tue, 18 Nov 2008 15:43:03 GMT

While thinking about my old friends,ex coursemates, those I enjoyed hanging together with, and those who failed to continue with higher education, I felt a sudden anxiety that I have to move on so that I'm not trapped in the history, the time I had those wonderful feelings mixing around with them. The feeling is indescribable. Although I do continue living my own life, from time to time I'd think of the old memories I had with family and friends. Perhaps it's just a kind of reminiscence that is so strong that I just feel like to go back to the past.

Just as I'm listening to the korean drama songs I downloaded last night, all those I used to watch with my mom at home, they bring me all the memories and moments I had with my mother. I missed her voice so much. I'm so sad that I didn't get to record the video of my mother while she was still around. Now the familiar voice that I'd been listening to for more than 20 years is never heard again. Every day during this time I'll think of her naturally. Every day during this time I'd think of the sudden lost of her, although anticipated. The path of my life is suddenly so vague that I wish to stop. I'm unable to feel the nervousness that the major acca papers are coming. The worse thing in my life has already happened. I don't think failing or getting poor results won't make me any bitter. Being in clear thoughts and trying to be as sensible as I could, I'll do my best to overcome this obstacle.

Exam is coming real soon

Fri, 14 Nov 2008 15:27:33 GMT

Have yet to find the discipline to study and to concentrate..

Random

Wed, 22 Oct 2008 18:00:09 GMT

The examination result is gona be released today. I don't feel the slightest nervousness. It's my birthday tomorrow, 24th. I don't feel happy at all. Nothing seems to bother me. I wish everything will come to an end soon.

A dog and a beggar

Mon, 13 Oct 2008 11:34:15 GMT

Take good care of your dogs, don't bully them or mistreat them,otherwise...

For you

Fri, 03 Oct 2008 17:55:13 GMT

Sorry readers, I don't know where should I write this, it's dedicated for my mom. So this post can actually be ignored.

Mom, I've always spent so much time being outside when I was young, leaving you alone at home. But I slowly cherish every moment being with you. Even though I'm not a kid anymore, I don't feel embarassed to bring you out together with me whenever I went back to see you. I'm thankful for the things you did for me. Even when the dishes you cooked didn't suit my taste, I still felt so fortunated to be able to eat the things you cooked for me. I've always heard that when you love someone you'll be happy when they are happy. I know you felt so and so do I. You showed me what love is. No one can ever replace u in my heart. I'm all alone after you passed away. I'm so unfilial for not taking good care of you. I know you feel upset that you are ill and lonely. I know you wish that I could bring you back to taiwan. I felt so sad when I saw your photos taken in taiwan, you were alone posing in the photos. You gave me so much love and you have sacrificed so much. You saved every penny for me so that I won't be hungry yet you didn't spend on things you wanted. How can I ever forget everything you did for me? I felt so sad when I heard from your friends that you worry so much about me. You don't know whether you'll have the chance to see me graduate. They told me you were so happy when I cleaned the house. You were so happy when I brought you out. I know you wish to see me graduate and getting married. I'm so sorry that I can't fulfill your wishes. There are so many places I wish to bring you to. There are so many food I wish to bring you to eat. There are still so much things I wish to tell you. Why did you leave me so suddenly and so fast. I know you still hoped to stay alive as long as you can. I know you have been suffering and struggling. Sorry for not spending more time with you. Sorry for not being able to be by your side when u needed me. I love u very much. I hope you will never forget me, because I will never forget you. You are my mother, my best friend.